Reminders

And you'll never know what unless you stick around.

Defining

I've finally found the word. The word of the feeling I've tried to describe to so many people. The word I've written about without even realizing. I have been searching for it, and now I have it.

Its rubatosis. And its beautiful. And scary. And alive.

n. the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat, whose tenuous muscular throbbing feels less like a metronome than a nervous ditty your heart is tapping to itself, the kind that people compulsively hum or sing while walking in complete darkness, as if to casually remind the outside world, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here.

byzantiumtests.com

This is the result:

Your responses indicate that you have a normal desire to share yourself with others. However, this need is not being adequately fulfilled at present.

As a result, you unconsciously attempt to treat this emptiness with momentary interests and temporary passions. If left unaddressed, this imbalance leads to impulsive behavior and unnecessary risks.

Past betrayals have left you generally suspicious of others’ behavior, particularly regarding romantic relationships. You fear you may be exploited if you open yourself too fully. Consequently, you often seek some proof of a new friend’s or lover’s sincerity before you decide to trust them.

Further complicating your relationships is the anxiety you have about your unfulfilled personal and professional goals. You fear that you’ve made decisions that weren’t in your own best interest, or failed to take advantage of opportunities when they presented themselves.

The desire to overcome these challenges sometimes lead you to seem pushy or even arrogant. Because this competitive urge is not always apparent to others, they are often surprised by it.

However, the passion that underlies your desire for success is unique. This makes you unlike others. You cannot simply accept what life has to offer; you aspire for more.

Guys, take this test right now oh my god. This description is so accurate, its frightening.

Sweet Liberty

"America, I believe we can build on the progress we’ve made and continue to fight for new jobs and new opportunity and new security for the middle class. I believe we can keep the promise of our founders, the idea that if you’re willing to work hard, it doesn’t matter who you are or where you come from or what you look like or where you love. It doesn’t matter whether you’re black or white or Hispanic or Asian or Native American or young or old or rich or poor, able, disabled, gay or straight, you can make it here in America if you’re willing to try.”

We did it. We all did it. I feel joy, pride, relief, hope, love.

I couldnt be happier with the prospect of the next four years. C'mon future, lets see what you can toss up.

About Me

“I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.”

—	Ferdinand von Schrubentaufft

Presidency

Abuse, sexism, rape, inequality, racism, entitlement, bigotry...

These are the problems I see; the problems that run so rampant throughout our society and the world. This is what makes me sick and angry and infuriated and disgusted. I see it in my own household. I see it across the nation. I see it in our history books and damn it, I do not want to see it in our future.

I want a freer tomorrow. Not a frightened one.

And that idea is just not possible under Romney. No progress will be made. We'll be taking steps back into our not so pleasant past; how are we supposed to move forward with such archaic and prejudiced notions of civility and equality (or rather, inequality)?

As a young woman, I am genuinely concerned for not only my future, but the future of every American citizen if Mitt Romney is elected.

And just like that

And just like that, October is over.

Thanksgiving is in a matter of short weeks.

Christmas is only 7 Fridays away.

Funny how time flies, isn't it? Always so quick when you're not looking, but painfully slow when you're actually paying attention. I just want time to go go go

mush

giddy-up

ride like the wind

Run, Forrest, run

So far none of those phrases have worked. I'm still guessing and checking.

I'll let you guys know if I strike gold.