Today was a bad dance day. The rest of casting was put up, and guess what? I'm actually in the ballet. Shocker, right. Yeah I know. I'm in four pieces and for that I am grateful. Its just... Frankly, I feel like shit. For five hours straight I just wanted to scream my head off in exasperation. Its not that I'm butt hurt because I wasn't cast in anything actually impressive or important, because I know I don't deserve it. But that's just it. It has finally come to light that I don't deserve good parts because I'm not good enough. And that's what truly sucks: them finally realizing what I've always known: I'm just not good enough.
And it makes me want to break down and cry.
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